My sister commented recently, “The stuff you’re working on now is straight out of Kid Vania’s wildest dreams.” She’s not wrong! It’s good for me to be reminded of that. I’m in a season of my career where I’m navigating uncharted territory, building structures around projects that are dream job status, and all with exceptional collaborators who are solid professionals.
With all that said, I need to step up more than I ever have before. That means I have to take steps I’m afraid of. And confront the realities of my own weaknesses. I’m not as organized as I should be. I need to be more efficient and focused. I’m not a great speaker. And deep down, my own sense of unworthiness holds me back from taking bold steps I should be taking. My perfectionism slows me down. (Thought process: I don’t want to mess up a quality opportunity, so I need to get myself ready.)
But the fact is, opportunities don’t necessarily wait around for me to be ready. Especially amazing ones that are right out of my childhood dreams. Exceptional collaborators don’t wait either. So some advice I’ve gotten from a mentor is this: Do it messy. Do it imperfectly. Do it awkwardly. But do it. All the things you’re not good at can be learned along the way.
It’s tough love advice, but she was right. I held back on starting a business for a long time because I was terrified of how taxes would be handled. But I dove in before I felt ready, and I learned. (Or rather, I learned that accountants exist). If I let taxes hold me back, I wouldn’t be where I am now. So I guess it’s time to dive in again and see what happens!